I am a firm believer in this phrase. I tend to live by it to be honest. For the longest time I couldn’t understand why I was the one who had to be diagnosed with postpartum OCD. Basically I thought I deserved some kind of karma because only mean people deserve something like this. That was me with my negative self-talk and is completely untrue. The real reason I got this was because I have had OCD my whole entire life, and I did not even know it.

I had no idea I was living in such an unhealthy space until I started going to therapy. I was basically living like I was walking on a tight-rope and I could fall off at any moment. My ego was so fragile that any little thing could set me off. I was unhappy all the time and always crying. That is no way for a person to live. I was so unhappy with myself that I lived in such a negative space where I could not move forward. I was stuck in a hole of darkness that I created myself.

If I did not get diagnosed with postpartum OCD, I would not have known any of this about myself. I would have continued living my life in the fragile state I was and would have been unhappy. Now I am starting to get my life and confidence back and am happier than I ever thought I could be in my life. Yes, having postpartum OCD was one of the hardest things I have ever gone through in my whole life, but it gave me the opportunity to look at myself and learn and grow. I would not have done this otherwise.

Sometimes in life we need hard times in order to appreciate the good we have. This was one of those times for me. As a human being I am allowed to see the negative experiences in my life and be sad, but I cannot dwell on those. If I live in that space forever, I will never be happy or get to enjoy my life. Everyone deserves to be happy and live their best life. I know that having postpartum OCD was terrible, but it happened for a reason.