Hugs is my very best friend. He’s been there for me through all of the great times and really low times of my life for the past six years. Two days ago, he started having a seizure like experience where he couldn’t control his body, wasn’t responsive, and was shaking. I was so scared. I just held him while this happened. Yesterday, it happened again. I am so sad. How could something like this happen to Hugs? He’s only 6.

We got an appointment at his vet where they told me he’s likely having seizures and will need medication. They are unsure of the cause, but I am devastated. I know that he will most likely be okay, but because of my OCD, my mind instantly envisions me losing Hugs. My heart cannot bear the thought. I couldn’t make it without him. I spent an hour last night on the floor with him just crying into his fur while he wagged his tail. Even when he isn’t feeling his best, he still wants to make me feel better.

Sometimes I wonder what I did to deserve a dog as amazing as Hugs. We have been inseparable from the moment we met. When I was teaching, I would drive him to stay at my parents’ house during the day like daycare. When I had postpartum OCD, he sat with me while I cried every single day. Then when I created this blog, he became my inspiration for the name, my brand, and business. He truly is the most loyal and sweetest friend.

I know that Hugs will mostly likely be okay, but the mere thought of potentially losing him is unfathomable to me. I spend every moment with him. He has been here for me for everything I have been through, and it is my turn to be here for him. I hope I can be strong enough, because it is so hard to watch your dog experience health struggles. I thought he was too young for this. I want him to be okay because life is so much better with him in it. He is truly my very best friend.